Taking a step of faith can sometimes feel like you’re diving off a cliff into dark water with no idea what’s there, but faith reminds us the Lord is there.
Four years ago, on Friday the 3rd April 2014, I sat at my computer shaking, reflecting on a meeting at work in which the Lord had whispered in my ear “Choose this day whom you’ll serve, you cannot serve God and money”…
At the time I was a police officer and had been in a meeting with my Inspector who was telling me I couldn’t publish my book and remain working as a police officer or “I’d bring the MET into disrepute”; he was giving me an ultimatum.
I heard the voice of the Lord in my mind and knew I was yet again about to take a high dive off a very tall cliff. I’d become used to earning the salary that I did and also having the status that went with being an officer. I was responsible for all the bills at home so this decision was no small feat!
During my quiet time with the Lord the next day He impressed on me the date to resign in order to accept the publishing opportunity that sat on the table in front of me. April 3rd was the date and it wasn’t far off, I had no savings, no other job lined up, no one other than the Lord to rely upon to pay the bills.
But come April 3rd, I typed out my resignation email and pressed send, shaking like a leaf, yet knowing in my knower, it was the right thing to do! Within four minutes, my Inspector accepted it and that was that. I’d dived off the cliff in faith!
A year later to the day, my book, On My Way Home hit the shelves! Anyone in publishing will tell you that’s a miracle in itself. Usually the process takes much longer due to scheduling and budgetary considerations!
God gave me the title of the book. I knew I needed to write it to give Him the glory for bringing me back to Him. It captures my journey in search of the God who I did not know – from being released from New Age deception to overcoming thoughts of suicide and despair to studying theology.
God will make a way for you
Four years on I can honestly say I don’t regret it, I promised the Lord I’d testify to all He has done in my life and it feels amazing to fulfil that no matter the cost. But keeping it real it has cost me.
I ended up having to sell my flat, I had family issues to work through and friends were lost. People don’t always understand about taking a step of faith. I’ve had to make cutbacks in all sorts of areas to accommodate my new life and ministry.
However, it’s priceless in knowing I’m doing what God asked of me. Somehow He has made a way for me in the last four years, sometimes at the 12th hour, but I wouldn’t change it for anything. If the Lord has impressed on you to take a step of faith, be encouraged He will make a way for you.
I thank God for the opportunities He has given me to share my testimony in the media, giving Him the Glory for saving my life. Read more in my post: Suicidal Woman turns on the TV. You’ll be amazed at what happens next!
This article was written by British author and speaker, Deborah Armin who is a graduate of the London School of Theology. Her book On My Way Home: One Woman’s Journey in Search of the Unknown God, is published by Authentic Media.
