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An Open Letter To The Dad Looking At Porn

Thought it isn't always talked about, the negative effects of pornography reach farther than the eye can see.

An Open Letter To The Dad Looking At Porn
An Open Letter To The Dad Looking At Porn

Dear Dad,

I want to let you know, first of all, that I love you and forgive you for what this has done to my life. I also wanted to let you know exactly what your porn use has done to me. You may think that this affects only you, or even only your relationship with mom. However, it has had a profound impact on me and all of my siblings as well.I found your porn on the computer somewhere around the age of 12 or so, just when I was starting to develop into a young woman.

First of all, it seemed very hypocritical to me that you were trying to teach me the importance of what I let into my mind (in terms of movies). Yet, here you were filling your mind with this junk on a regular basis. Your talks to me about being careful with what I watched meant virtually nothing.

Because of pornography, I was aware that mom was not the only woman you were looking at. I became acutely aware of your wandering eye when we were out and about. This taught me that all men have a wandering eye and can’t be trusted. I learned to distrust and even dislike men for the way they perceived women in this way.As far as modesty goes, you tried to talk with me about how my dress affects those around me and how I should value myself for what I am on the inside.

Your actions, however, told me that I would only ever truly be beautiful and accepted if I looked like the women on magazine covers, or in pornography. Again, your talks with me meant nothing and, in fact, just made me angry.As I grew older, I only had this message reinforced by the culture in which we live. I learned beauty is something that can only be achieved if you look like “them.” I also learned to trust you less and less since what you told me didn’t line up with what you did. I wondered more and more if I would ever find a man who would accept me and love me for me and not just a pretty face.

When I had friends over, I wondered how you perceived them. Did you see them as my friends, or did you see them as a pretty face in one of your fantasies? No girl should ever have to wonder that about the man who is supposed to be protecting her and other women in her life.

I did meet a man. One of the first things I asked him about was his struggle with pornography. I’m thankful to God that it is something that hasn’t had a grip on his life. We still have had struggles because of the deep-rooted distrust in my heart for men. Yes, your porn watching has affected my relationship with my husband years later.

If I could tell you one thing, it would be this: Porn didn’t just affect your life; it affected everyone around you in ways I don’t think you can ever realize. It still affects me to this day as I realize the hold that it has on our society. I dread the day when I have to talk with my sweet little boy about pornography and its far-reaching greedy hands. When I tell him about how pornography, like most sins, affects far more than just us.

Like, I said, I have forgiven you. I am so thankful for the work that God has done in my life in this area. It is an area that I still struggle with from time to time, but I am thankful for God’s grace and also my husband’s grace. I do pray that you are past this and that the many men who struggle with this will have their eyes opened.

Love, Your Daughter

* This has been posted anonymously due to the nature of the topic.

Author’s Note:

To all dads out there, we want you to know that it’s not entirely your fault. Sometimes, we daughters fail to acknowledge you beyond your mistakes. We fail to recognize that you are struggling too. We fail to let you know that you’re not alone, that you can rely on us and be honest with us. Forgive us also. We accept that nobody is perfect, we see you like God sees you. You can be honest with us, and we’ll get through it together, by the grace of God. We’re not looking for a perfect dad. We’re looking for a dad who is strong enough to be honest about his imperfections and mistakes. Our ability to give love is not dependent on your actions.

Give us the chance to be with you when you’re struggling. Give us the chance to pull you out of the pit like you always do when things go wrong in our family. Give us a chance to be of help because this is what family is, to rely on each other. Give us the chance to be the daughter you need us to be. You don’t have to appear perfect in front of us, dad. You are already enough.

Credits: Churchleaders.com

This post was compiled by Le-Jovale Vallejo.

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