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Many years ago I heard a song that stopped me right in tracks. The theme of the song was all about a life being out of balance. The first two lines were;
“how about getting off of these antibiotics
How about stopping eating when I’m filled up”
These lyrics resonated with me. Not only was I on and off antibiotics for over twenty years, (mostly on) but I couldn’t seem to get my horrendous eating habits under control, and I binged. I binged a lot.
During a very dark time in my life I remember crying out to God begging him for answers as to why I was so sick. I was only nineteen and living what may be many girls dream, I was working in Manhattan in New York city. But my exciting new journey didn’t involve exploring the city, instead my time was spent running from doctor to doctor to figure out what was stealing my health out from under me. I will never forget, as I was crying and praying for answers, I was also scoffing down a hostess cupcake. That’s how far off course I was. This was the very first time God dealt with me about my food addiction. If you think I immediately put down that cupcake and forever changed my ways keep reading.
Another pastime I had was going to the grocery store and buying an entire birthday cake just for myself. The baker would always ask if I wanted them to write the usual “happy birthday” on the cake. Week after week I would shyly answer “no it’s not necessary”, and wonder if they suspected it was really just for me. Although it wasn’t anyone’s birthday, it sure felt like mine when I got home alone with that cake. The over indulgence certainly didn’t feel like an issue to me, I didn’t gain weight so I could easily justify to myself that it could not be a problem. I was also in denial for thinking the sorry state of my health was unrelated to my eating habits.
God’s opinion of how I was treating (or should I say mistreating) my own body started off as soft whispers. After years of me ignoring what He was trying to show me, He began to speak louder. Much like a parent, when their child doesn’t listen, they must “turn up the heat” in order to save their children from self destruction.
I took this photo years ago, and well before I ever had a blog. I knew I had a problem when I went to my local Barns and Nobel for a book and instead walked out with these two desserts. Both of which I ate right there in the car.
One scripture that shook me out of my denial was Philippines 3:19. ” Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach, and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is set on earthly things”. Was I making my stomach my God? I instinctively knew I had been making food my idol yet letting go would still prove to be difficult. After years of an internal battle between myself and God, I came to the conclusion that I can no longer choose food over God. That I could no longer live to satisfy a craving and place that addiction above my relationship with Him.
I now follow Doug Kaufmann’s diet (the Kaufmann diet) and through the years I watched my health improve dramatically. My relationship with God is also on more of a solid footing. I am not perfect and sometimes I falter, but I receive God’s grace and move on “forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 2:13-14
Below is an interview I did last month on God TV’s “Know The Cause”. I discuss my past issues with food and the grace God has shown me. My interview starts at the 16:26 mark. If you have an addiction to food and are ready to heal, Jesus is ready and waiting to guide you into a healthier way to live your life. A life that is not shackled to addictions but instead one that is free and productive and full of His grace.
Erin’s book can be found here – A Journey from Chronic Illness, Brokenness & Junk Food Junkie to Wholeness & Wellness. If you suffer from auto immune disease, chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia, candida, food allergies, acid reflux, depression, and more…this book is an eye opener! This is not your grandmother’s cookbook. In Eat Pray Get Well, Erin invites you into her journey from a childhood filled with rejection and emotional abuse to chronic illness into her adult years. She shares how God used both of these debilitating tragedies to reveal His grace, healing, and blessings in unimaginable ways. Eat Pray Get Well is entertaining, inspiring, and most of all will help you gain the tools needed to help heal your body and soul. All recipes are free of gluten, wheat yeast, processed sugars, peanuts, and follow the Kaufmann diet.