It is said that inside every person lies a book waiting to be written. For years I listened to the voices in my head telling me that no one would want to read my story, what did I have to say anyway etc. etc. Furthermore I never felt I had any real direction as to what form the book would take. That is up until now.
During the period in my life when I taught regularly at Christian conferences I also had the privilege of teaching a women’s seminar that I shared extensively throughout South Africa, UK and USA. So, often I was told that I should write a book, I even had prophecies along the same line and still those voices remained in my head, shutting down my creativity and convincing me that now was not the time, maybe one day, you know, in the sweet bye and bye…
Cornered by God
Well, the day came when I found myself cornered by God, ambushed by the Holy Spirit into surrender. Do you know that feeling? The feeling when there really is no choice other than to be obedient. God’s timing is perfect.
We had been back in South Africa for about nine months and my husband Roger had not long returned from a trip to the UK, bringing with him a stinking cold and a chest infection. Within a month he was in hospital with pneumonia. If that wasn’t a shock enough, on his release the doctors told me that he could expect to be in bed for at least six weeks!
“Six weeks Lord, seriously…?!!!” was more or less the cry of my heart… and head. When you have a business, or work for that matter, six weeks is a long time to be absent. I had never seen Roger so sick, hospital had been traumatic enough for us, let alone the thought of bed rest with me playing Florence Nightingale at his side! I am not a natural ‘nurse,’ it doesn’t come easily…
So I did what I do best, got busy… Very busy, driving to and from Pretoria and Johannesburg trying to keep all the balls in the air while at the same time, running home and nursing my sick husband. It wasn’t long before I felt completely exhausted. I remember sitting in bed one morning crying out to the Lord…”Now what? What good is it going to do if I too get sick?” Blah, blah, blah…. You get the picture!
It was then the Holy Spirit nudged me and reminded me that He had told me some years back that if I would focus on building the Kingdom, He would build my business. I was too tired to argue. He had my attention though, but how was I to change focus? God, very quietly and gently began giving me instruction. The instruction was simple: to get involved in the local church… and to write my book.
Make the time
So here I am, at the age of 64, finally writing, the outcome of which is in His hands. Right now I have no idea where this will go, where it will take me or for that matter whether people will find my ramblings the least bit interesting. My prayer however is that people will be encouraged not only by my story, but more importantly by the grace of God and the faithfulness of God at work in my life.
Maybe writing a book is not on your agenda, nor ever has been. I guarantee there is something you have always wanted to do but never had the time or courage. In our busy lives none of us ever ‘ have’ time, we have to ‘make time’.
Maybe it’s studying for a degree, learning a musical instrument, a foreign language…whatever it is, all I can say is ‘just do it’! I have had to learn and indeed I am still learning that there is no end to God’s grace and mercy. He is also infinitely patient, He has all the time in the world!