The number one fear that all parents deal with is the thought of their children dying, especially at a young age. Children are a miracle of life and instantly become a representation of wearing our heart’s on our sleeves – leaving every parent vulnerable and open to a kind of heartbreak never before experienced.
This is because being a mother or father is a very real and tangible lesson in understanding the depth and width of God’s love for us. If our own hearts feel at the point of exploding with the love we feel for our children, then how much more must God’s heartbeat for his sons and daughters?
Unfortunately, one mother knows not only the crippling ache of losing one child, but the terrible combination of also losing a second child at a young age. In a clip from the documentary 4 Your Eyez Only, rapper J. Cole meets this amazing woman who continues to push forward and keep her faith in God, even despite her incredible loss.
At the age of 52-years-old, this woman is not only the mother of four sons and two daughters but also a grandmother to three young grandchildren. J. Cole meets up with her as she is on the way to bike from one of three jobs to the next for the day. For a quick moment, they strike up a conversation about her children and her faith.
Four years ago at the age of nineteen her son Joshua was murdered by a friend who mishandled a gun and shot Joshua in the head. Then, at the age of fourteen, her daughter was murdered by a thirteen year old neighbor who, while trying to rape her, hit her head hard against a seat, causing brain trauma and her death.
“But it’s all good, you gotta keep moving. Gotta keep moving,” she told J. Cole, sharing that she knows she has a testimony.
Completely blown away by the joy and life that was beaming from the mother and grandmother, J. Cole asked her if she could share what it was that helped her keep such a positive attitude towards life.
“I look at it like, God has me here for a reason, because so many of us, so many of us are hurting and we’re confused and we’re angry and we’re just doing anything… Because we’re hurting and we don’t know which way to turn. But God is the answer… Jesus is definitely the answer.”
Praying that anyone suffering with this deep loss would know the depth of God’s love for you and that is plans are greater than anything we can think or imagine.