Only when we are in the dark places do we have the opportunity to praise God as a sacrifice.
“Though the fig tree does not blossom and there is no fruit on the vines; though the product of the olive fails and the fields yield no food, though the flock is cut off from the fold and there are no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will exult in the God of my salvation! The Lord God is my Strength, my personal bravery, and my invincible army; He makes my feet like hinds feet and will make me to walk and make progress upon my high places.” (Habakkuk 3:17-19)
My daughter struggles with mental illness. The current heinous culprit is OCD, obsessive-compulsive disorder. For the past several months this has revealed itself on steroids. When I look back on what we have all come through and what is still manifesting, I marvel. How does Kelsi deal with this day after day?
“You don’t know what it’s like in my mind, Mom” is what I have heard. She is right, I actually don’t, but I am her “closest person” and suffer along with her. We learn to overcome as we stay in step with God’s timing and as we identify with Christ in His sufferings.
When extreme behavioral outbursts occur which result in serious consequences I have a choice to make. While I wait for God’s promise to materialize in Kelsi’s life I can moan, wail or become depressed; or I can exalt the name of Jesus, my Savior and Redeemer. He has taught me well.
Praise God anyway
“I trust Jesus anyway,” is what I say. I continue to lean into the secret place in God.
God told me I have the power to choose my focus. Whatever I feel in my emotions, I move to my default position of magnifying Jesus. I choose to praise God and I expect positive things from Him no matter how bad things look in the present. This greatly strengthens me.
I encourage all of you who are crying on the inside with this truth. God is good and He is faithful. Let your tears out because He captures every one of them. He will pour out His vengeance on the enemy as you persist in prayer before Him.
“So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.” (2 Corinthians 4:16-18)