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Shattered Silence

A powerful documentary about suicide and its prevention, was also a healing experience for the producer.

Shattered Silence
Shattered Silence

“I can’t say that I ever tried to kill myself but I definitely always stood on the sideline of self-destruction; almost a kind of slow unraveling of my soul. I never knew who I truly was; my identity was lost through the years of my life. I found myself in the titles of jobs I performed, but never just in being ME.”

I didn’t like me. I had shame. I had suffered abuse. I had insecurities. I had my own inner prison that I was locked in. Silence kept me in chains.

As my son Joseph and I produced the film Shattered Silence (a documentary on suicide and its prevention) we interviewed dozens of people in deep, excruciating pain. We listened to their agonizing stories of struggling to survive. Stories about bullying, PTSD/Veterans of War, abuse, self-harm, eating disorders, and the aftermath of suicide. I, myself, would then feel my own heart begin to race and beat wildly. I would run out of interviews sobbing, as my own pain started to erupt from dark, hidden caverns of my soul. As we encouraged others to speak up and shatter their own silences over the trauma, or abuse, or tragedies of their lives, I too was unknowingly staring down that same road.

Producing the film represents the best and the worst of times for me. I learned about my own silence, my own self-loathing, and my own burden of relentless shame. I would relive the pain of my past over, and over and, over until finally I began to let it go .

I sobbed ugly cries to the heavens. I wanted to die yet I wanted to live. I felt like chains had fallen off me, but where to go now that I was free. Freedom felt more painful than the bondage.


God. The One who never leaves me in my darkest moment. The One who steadies my faltering heart. The One who breathes life into dead bones. MY dead bones. When my past threatened to destroy me, God stood up for me in the face of my enemies – in the face of silence, and shame, and grief, and hopelessness, and shame, and self destruction. He spoke LIFE and HOPE! He shattered the silence of my own broken heart. He made me whole. He restored my soul.

“Through our pain and suffering we must fight to survive; taking responsibility for ourselves and actions so that out of the darkness we will rise to our true potential.” (Joseph Channell)

With God there is ALWAYS hope!

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