Amber Smith, wife of country singer Granger Smith, revealed in an Instagram post how her son’s tragic death in 2019 drew her closer to God.
The couple’s 3-year-old son River, died last year in June due to a drowning accident.
In an emotional post, River’s mom Amber wrote:
“2019 — The year that brought me to my knees. The year our beautiful red-headed boy turned 3 and went Home. The year that same sweet boy saved two other lives. The year that broke my heart into pieces but also tempered my spirit.”
Amber and Granger Smith
The grieving mother posted family photos including her late son. She also shared an illustration of her family as she sees it now.

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And above all, Amber highlighted how she became closer to God despite the unspeakable loss.
“The year I cried every day for six months straight. The year London lost three teeth and turned 8. The year we ministered to hundreds about grief and hope,” she said.
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She continued, “The year my eyes were truly opened to what is important. The year we’ve never felt more love from our community. The year I found out that joy and grief can coexist. The year we dove back into the fire to help other grieving parents. The year that changed me. The year of the blue butterfly. The year I learned that I am not in control. The year that solidified that I can’t live this life without God.”

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And although she admitted it was hard for her to start the New Year without her son, she’s also filled with hope for 2020.
Amber explained, “Through this sadness, I’m hopeful for all that is to come. My goals for the coming year are to grow the @theriverkellyfund and help as many people as we can, keep London and Lincoln thriving despite the heartache of the past year, grow in grace and faith with my Maker, share our story in the hopes of helping others, and be in the present moment because as much as we want to plan and dream, today is all we have.”
And the country music singer’s wife then concluded her message with gratefulness to God.
“This moment. Each day, whether good or bad, is another gift from God. I hope to live it with gratitude and compassion for others. I hope to continue to surrender my battles because in my weakness He is my strength. I hope to forgive myself little by little. I hope to keep bringing people to the Kingdom and sharing the love of God that I have felt so strongly.”
Source: Christian Today