Dear God, I want to be honest with You. It’s been pretty hard lately. I feel like giving up. My emotions are going motions. I admit I’m worried about many things. This uncertainty is killing me. I don’t know what will happen in the future amidst this crisis. But I know You are the One who holds us together. So I choose to hold on to You. Even if how I feel tells me to give up, I’d still choose to hold on tight. Because I know You are there. You are my Father, and I need Your help, God. Honestly, I’m scared. But knowing that You are with me is more than enough. Help me take control of my emotions and get rid of these overwhelming thoughts. Encounter me with Your love once again, Lord. I can’t go on without You. I cannot take another step apart from Your love. My heart and my soul need You now more than yesterday. I need You now more than ever. Open my heart, God, just like what You did to me when I first fell in love with You. Refresh me, refine me, make me who you want me to be. All for Your Glory.
I love You, God.
And I’m sorry if sometimes I feel this way. But You say “it’s okay to not be okay.” You say You will never leave me in this process. And you even whisper “I am worth it.” And so I find hope knowing that Your love will sustain me. Trusting that Your love will enable me to overcome storms and challenges in life. Thank You so much, Lord, for Your patience. I cannot really imagine my life without You. Without You, my life is just garbage.