Letting go of disappointment was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do.
I had just come back home from having brunch with a friend. It was a delicious time of biscuits and gravy and deep conversation. While we were getting to know each other better, we were asking each other about past experiences.
As I was sharing with her about my past, I realized that I still had some pain there. I had some life experiences that I had not processed with the Lord, or surrendered to Him. I knew that once I got home I would need some time with Jesus to work it out.
A Place of Process
When I got home, I went to the place that I process everything. It’s the place where I can let it all out. It’s my safe haven and my therapy. I’m a worship leader and musician, so for me this is my piano.
I started playing a chord progression and singing. I just sang out all of my hurt and pain and everything hard I had been through.
I finally came to a place where I had let it all out. I mean ALL of it! I didn’t think I could cry or sing anymore about it. That’s when it happened…
I felt in my heart the Lord speaking. I heard “Will you give me your disappointment?”
I thought, “sure that’s easy.” So quickly I decided to say it. I spoke out loud with my hands open in surrender, “Lord, I give you my…….” then silence. I physically could not say it!
I thought that was odd so I tried again. “Lord I give you my….” It happened again. I’ve never had that happen before where I physically could not speak something.
I decided to pause and sit in that moment. In my heart and in that silence, I released all the things that had disappointed me. The things that I had held onto for so long. Once I felt I released it in my heart, I decided to try and say it again.
The Surrender of Disappointments
“Lord I give you my disappointment.” Finally, I could say it out loud! I never realized how much I had let disappointment have it’s way in my life. It was my comfort zone and reason to hold onto pain, to hold onto the past and not move forward. That was all behind me and I had fully surrendered it to the Lord!
I felt so free after that moment that I wrote a song about letting go of disappointment and holding onto hope.
That’s what I want to encourage you to do today. What past discouragement and disappointments are you holding onto? I truly believe that holding on to these things can prevent and block us from receiving our breakthrough moments.
I want to encourage you to have what I would call a “piano bench moment”. Take a few minutes to release all of your discouragement, disappointment, and hopelessness to Jesus.
Then take another few minutes to receive the hope that Jesus gives us. It’s so much better and you will see your breakthrough on the other side of it.
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