When I first learned something was wrong with my daughter I felt the deepest pain I have ever felt, I laid in bed for three days under the weight of it I thought it was going to kill me. There have been so many times facing the pain of autism or the reality of my life felt like it would crush me. The temptation to bury my head in the sand and pretend it will just “go away” or somehow magically “all work out” becomes so tempting.
The problem is it doesn’t just WORK out and it doesn’t just go away. The problem is you spend most of your life running rather than living. The problem is things don’t get better through denial they just get worse.
But the courage to face the pain and walk through the fire, came because I loved her and myself more then I loved my need to feel safe and secure by denying the harsh reality. I walked through the pain and let it crush me because she deserved a fighting chance, and the truth is, so did I.
5 years into this autism recovery journey I’ve realized something pretty amazing…Every time I think I will be crushed under the weight of the pain, I come back stronger. Just like breaking down muscles to build them. The pain is growing pains.
I look at who I was 5 years ago compared to who I am today and they are not the same person. I have become who I was meant to be through the fire. The promises of God have come through being crushed and letting him do the work in me. The promises came through the pain.
If there is a situation in your life that you are avoiding because it seem to painful to face it, TURN AROUND AND FACE IT. Let it break you if it must, but also watch as in the brokenness, you start down the path to becoming. Watch as every harsh reality you face becomes your next VICTORY.
Avoiding the painful thing doesn’t keep you from experiencing the pain of it, but it does keep you from fighting the very battle you were meant to have victory over.
You were not simply made to survive your life, you were made to conquer it in the goodness and faithfulness of God. You cant have the victory without facing the battle.
Pietze is a speaker, life consultant, wife, and mother. She is a lover of God and is passionate about helping people encounter the life changing presence of God along with growing in emotional health. She helps people to foster emotionally healthy families who encounter the peace and presence of God in their everyday lives. She believes revival starts at home and is passionate about raising kids to encounter the love of Jesus and to help parents feel equipped in raising their kids, especially kids with special needs. You can get in touch with Pietze at www.pietze.com